There were several things that I took away from the visit. The first being, how much Raul and our agency love what they do. They are dedicated to the placement of these children in good, loving, Christian homes. And they work very long hours to make that happen. I'm so thankful for their faithfulness to this calling. The second was a ton of legal process gobbly-gook. But all things that we needed to know to expect. Then Raul asked us to just close our eyes for a minute and picture the children we would receive from Colombia. I cannot adequately describe to you the emotions I felt in that moment. It was a jumble of excitement, trepidation, joy and a twinge of sorrow all wrapped in one emotional package. What has happened to the me who isn't big on crying or emotional displays? She is nowhere to be found these days. And maybe that isn't such a bad thing.
I am amazed at how funny the Lord is. I never really thought much about having children before I had them. I was not the little girl who dreamed of what her wedding would be like one day or what she would name the little boy and little girl that happily rounded out her family of 4. But the Lord knew differently. I was not the mother who wanted a large family. Too messy, too expensive, too exhausting. I was clearly finished with growing my family after our first two children. But the Lord knew differently. Isn't it just like the Lord to take you and put you in a place where you are utterly unprepared and uncomfortable? The one place you were not willing to go. In this way, there can be no doubt as to who is in control. I'm so thankful that He knew all along where I would find my joy in this world. I am so glad that for once I listened.
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